I think I really liked it

When I was saying goodbye to the folks there, starting with Jennifer and Rose, I thought I was really going to break into tears.  I wanted to say a lot more, about how thankful I was, but really didn't dare to because the last thing I wanted was to leave a stunning impression of being an overly attached and emotional student - and I am.  I left in a haste, even forgot to say bye to a few people.

I really loved being there.  Thinking back to the first time I stepped into that office, that time I thought to myself "man, this environment is awesome, the people are wonderful!  If only I can really get the opportunity!"  Although I was a little hesitant about what to expect when I was told that my supervisor was going to be someone I've never met before, my doubts cleared as soon as I met the most wonderful boss I've ever had.  I wasn't sure if I'll like the nature of the work, coming from a geography background, but I soon learned the cool things and enjoyable aspects about it, with the really kind support of the group.  Truly, each and every one of them was kind, patient and sweet.  Starting from day 1 I immediately got into the mode of learning and training.  For the whole 8 months, I was proud of being one of them and always looked forward to the next day.  I'm still so thankful that I was there.

As the second term wore on, I grew uneasy of the time to leave.  I thought I shouldn't find a job for the summer, because I needed a break after leaving a wonderful environment in order to get a mellow reality check.  But the opportunity presented itself - I had to take it.  I just didn't know the adjustment was going to be this difficult, and everything seems to be a little polarized in my eyes.

I know I'm still very biased, coming from the perfect workplace, but I had thought I was prepared enough.  Nobody is mean to me, the culture is just as such, the nature of the work is the reality, but the shock from the drastic change really got to me.  Throughout my first day I was on the verge of breaking into tears (once again), especially whenever I thought about what I still had last week.  Constantly I cursed myself for being so weak, ungrateful and suck at change.  Though they told me to let them know how I was doing at the new place, I couldn't because I knew it wouldn't come out right.  After my first day, I rushed home and quickly removed my make up before really breaking into tears.  I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I think this is one of the impact that they had on me.  I love them too much that it was hard to say goodbye and move on.  Today, my second day, I wandered onto the 12 floor.  As I was going through the maze I ran into the man whom I was desperately seeking for.  It felt like a pleasant reunion and I got the hug I needed the most.  It was so comforting to see someone who reminded me of the time I spent at Library Square.  I'm glad that my ties with the Library Square isn't completely severed with the completion of my term.  I cannot wait to meet the several people who really offered a great deal of support.  I'm sure things will improve.