Wow. I'm quite surprised.
Last friday, I came home from school and went straight to my PC to work on my paper.
This friday, I did the same thing.
I smell like books. I even tripped over them becuase they were all over my floor.
I'm nerding.
It's frustrating, my schedule conflicts. They won't stop occurring
Grade 10: 3 provincials in 3 consecutive days
Last term: three finals in three days
Last month: 4 midterms in 4 consecutive days
Next week: term paper due; french test; english in-class essay; presentation
Oh I'm looking forward to this. Lovely.
No wonder I'm nerding out.
I even have a theory session with Karlena tomorrow. I haven't done my homework. But I'm sure she won't get upset. She's in quite a good mood these days, she has a boyfriend now.
It's really interesting. So many people have been talking to me about their love life. Makes me feel left out. Shall I join too? Invitation? Check.
Have I told you, I'm not fit. Going through my manuscripts, I feel like I can't be locked up by norms and rules involved in those social connections.
Have I told you, I get blue sometimes, I can't bear isolation. But the more I feel so, the more I need to overcome. Isn't this the point? Am I still not too immature to handle anything beyond myself.
Have I told you, I think I'm wasting my time.
I feel like it's time to do something, say if I live for 100 years, I've nearly used up 1/5 of my lifetime.
I question myself, am I living.
ps.
Is nerding living. This is not a question actually.
Awww you don't need to feel left out cos you don't have a boyfriend Sherry!... I don't have a girl friend and no one is interested in me (i'm too ugly i guess)... so try not to feel left out cos its the same for me too hehe
ReplyDeleteand you have a good life i think, think of all the friends you have and all the places you've seen in your life!! you're only 18 and have seen and experienced so much :) ....I wish my live was interesting like yours!! :)
Mike
Haha, thanks for your comment Mike
ReplyDeleteIt's okay, I don't mind feeling left out, probably I just haven't met the right one yet.
I like my life the way it is. But I feel I'm not doing my best to make it better and maybe make myself a better person, Sometimes I feel like I'm studying all the time and missing things. That's my concern right now.
hehe you're welcome Sherry :)
ReplyDeleteI understand... well you'll meet someone i'm sure... you're pretty and a cool person :)
... i give up thinking someone can love me, im too ugly lol
ahh i know what you mean... well your studies are important and they are probably helping you be a better person :) they help you with gaining knowledge and dealing with pressure at least :)
but i feel the same way.. i always feel like im missing things... like i'm missing out on important parts of life..it sucks :(